These past two months have flown by, Rye is getting really big. My heart is so full, I love him so much and that love keeps growing and growing. I kiss on him all day long.
This past month, the three of use have solidified ourselves as a family. I was worried since Timmy and I had just been a two some for 7 years that it would be hard to have another person in our tribe, but I truly can't remember life without him.
I can see his personality is starting to show. He is very silly, he laughs right before he throws up then laughs after. He talks a lot, just like his daddy. He is stubborn and wants things his way, just like me.
He farts and throws up a lot!
I have learned a lot from Rye in this short amount of time. Before Rye I moved fast, very impulsive i.e. Portland and didn't just enjoy the now. I was always worrying about something or planning what I am going to be doing weeks out. But he has taught me to really be in the now, slow down and just savor every minute with him, because before I know it he is a bratty teenager who doesn't care about me anymore.
After 6 weeks Timmy and I were able to be intimate. THANK GOD! But I was worried that I would be insecure about my body or Timmy would see me differently since he watched his son come out of my vagina. But when the time came, Timmy made me feel sexier than ever.
During the first month, Rye would sleep throughout the night. I would have to wake him up every 4 hours to feed. Everyone would ask how we were sleeping and I was like great!!! I guessed I jinxed us, because right when we hit the 2 month mark he decided he didn't want to sleep. He would wake up every hour wanting to feast. We starting giving him a warm bath, warm bottle, and swaddled him in the Easy Swaddles from Aden + Anais and it was a game changer, he finally slept at least 4 hours through the night!
Timmy gets frustrated sometimes because he wants to help but there are times Rye only wants me, I mean really he just wants my boobs. Which then makes Timmy feel useless. He says Rye loves me more than him, but I reassure him if he had boobs and produced milk he would be obsessed with him too. I remind him that their bond will get stronger once Rye isn't as dependent on me. But I can already tell how much Rye loves Timmy. Whenever Rye sees him he laughs and smiles.